Just the ramblings of a crazy Mom of two beautiful girls (and YaYa to many children that I adore) navigating through my snafu'd life. This blog is my way of 'clearing the cobwebs' and trying to maintain my sanity.
I have a chaotic life full of kids, rebuilding after our house burnt, coffee, my best girls, mornings in my breezeway, blogging, a full time job, screaming kids, laundry, remodeling, Asperger's/OCD Big'K, mowing, taking the trash out, Bipolar w/psychosis and RAD Lil'K, a crazy family, more kids thrown in the mix, bad plumbing, laughing until I pee my pants, electrical malfunctions, and everything else the Big G thinks He needs to throw at me on this ride we call life, all the while trying to survive being a single mother. Because let's face it...every day that I wake up, I am outnumbered!
i as most moms look forward to a night out. although most of the time my 'nights out' include all the kids and just sitting at someones house and laughing till our sides hurt. tonight. i have filled my BFF obligations by purchasing, for my best friend, lawn seats at the aerosmith concert. yay me! as i sit here, at 1500, i realize that a month ago when i bought the tickets i really didnt realize i would be in the full throws of more remodeling. i have my weekend work bag packed, i have showered and gotten dressed, halfway fixed my hair, and because this is texas dont think that i will be applying any make up. i look horrible enough as it is without having base and mascara pouring down my face. this year, 2009, i have been to more concerts that i have in say...maybe close to five years. but i am enjoying myself. i always thought my 30's would be full of fun. both with the family and as an adult. my BFF is as close to family as one can get without blood relations getting in the mix. i love her. she has been sooooooo excited by our concert tonight. she has wanted to go see aerosmith since she was 12. which has been...well...a while. lol. well tonight is the night. i have felt so bad this week because she has called to try to plan things and get things nailed down as to when we are leaving and what time and yada yada. and here i have been worrying and working and so busy this week that i have not been a 'good friend' by being happy and enabling her planning. i feel horrible for this. i feel like i should have been more excited in her excitement. but yet again i have been wound up in my own issues. for this i am sorry. it just struck me how horrible i have been about this. almost as if its a burden. but i think it stems from the thought that i am having to get so much done and not enough time. im sure once we get in the car and realize, like we always do, that there are no kids, no bothers, and nothing but fun ahead i will be giddy and dumb. right now, as i sit here waiting for my hair to dry with the unruly curls that have cursed me my entire life, i just cant find the happiness. i only see the extra hours of time i am missing out on. *sigh* i have to wake up at 0400 to be at work at 0500 for a 17 hour work day. then on to four hours of sleep to go back and do another 17 hours of work on sunday. did i mention i have a job that if im sleepy or not paying attention at all i can literally kill someone?? ughhh yeah. to turn around and drive an hour home sunday exhausted to turn around and get up monday around 0800 to hang four doors and work on the kitchen. i love my house. im glad its getting done the way i want it but i just feel like my plate overfloweth. my dinner plate has turned into a buffet. sheesh.
prayer for tonight: dear lord jesus please let us be safe, no tickets (police related), safe journey there, safe trip home, good parking, short walk to the gate, awesome pictures, good deep refreshing sleep for me tonight, a GREAT ASS concert, cold beer, great T-shirts to buy, that all my work gets done at my house when i am not home, my kids to be good when my dad has them, and my BFF to have THE MOST AWESOMEST GREATEST HAPPIEST FUNNEST AMAZINGEST and on and on TIME OF HER LIFE tonight!!! and i just want to thank the big G for the ability to enjoy and afford such a treat. amen.
and again the great friend has turned rotten...how she puts up with me i will never figure it out.
did i mention that these tickets were to celebrate our 11 yr anniversary?? dont ask. ill explain that one later.
i love ya nie nie. you are my friend and soul sister. i am so happy that we are going tonight. i just havent kicked in yet. and you know that i in NO WAY regret buying these tickets or going with you. just having a moment. long day. ill be leaving my house in about thirty minutes. after i police the handywork thats happening under my carport. (control freak!)
and to everyone else...i will try to tweet away as things are happening. DAMN the iphone 3G for not having video capabilities.
Just a mom of two kids. Big K and Lil K. Who make me loco on a daily basis. I have a ton of other kids that call me 'YaYa'. They are my 'stray cats' as my great aunt refers to them. Once you start feeding them they won't go away...and apparently i'm a great cook!
The things I say will not always make sense. I am funny. I am sarcastic. I am educated. (Sometimes I forget this and the ghettoredneckcoonass comes out. I cannot help it. Hushitup!) I am a smartass. I do not sleep a lot. I may be off color at times. I am also harmless. You may not get my style and that is not my fault. This blog is not meant to be anything other than my thoughts. What I say belongs to me and at the end of the day...it's just words. Get over yourself. If you are offended, go away. You have been warned...