i had a special child. one you have heard of before, Big'K, and i thought i was ready. but this little one. she has caught me in ways i could never have been prepared for. we are going through testing right now. because my Lil'K can be more lightning than sunshine. she can be fiery yet caring. lie to your face then be brutally honest. we have had a lot of doctor appointments lately. psych to be exact. you see, something is wrong. they are not sure what yet. but something. bi-polar, multiple personality, PTSD, on the spectrum, sociopathic...something. something scary. but ya know what? the meds...they are helping. and right now that makes this the best last six months we have had since she was two. so now, hitting seven, i am just hoping for some luck. roll the dice...hit seven. let us see where we roll.
i am here. i am mommy. i will always be here. through the rough and the silly. the laughs and the tears. the diagnosis. everything.
i love you through and through. my little sunshine full of lightening.