lately i have been feeling so - blah. my BFF is not feeling well and i am still recovering from my double surgery doozie. not to mention being off of work for a month has taken a huge financial toll. and that sucks. bad. i have also been trying to make decisions on what to do next. with life in general. go back to school? which i need to do. and soon. get a new job? but the one i have is not bad. and i make ok money. and the insurance. the insurance is great. i hate to leave that job and not have the insurance. and it took me three years to get to the pay point i am at. i am so tired of working only weekends. and i forget about how bad i miss my weekends until i have some time off. but things have to change and i know that. Lil'K does not start school till August so i would have to find someone to keep her during the day so i could work my part-time job. decisions. decisions. decisions. i also have not made it over here to write in too long and i hate that. i love writing. and i love writing here. my house is a wreck with a capital W. my laundry is piled up and my dishes...well ok i washed those this morning. when i could not sleep. which is also becoming more and more of a hassle. the not sleeping sucks bad. i just want to be on a normal schedule. with decent pay. and insurance. i mean really? is that too much to ask? apparently it is. i go back to work this weekend so that will kill me. when you go from not working for a month back to 17 hour days it kinda kicks ya down a bit. i plan to work my butt off in June and catch up on the bills and then decide stuff then. i just do not see it happening the way i want it to.

*sigh*

normal crap different day i guess. Big G knows if i can make it through this year i will be golden. this just has not been a good year for people. and i do not know why. it seems all my friends are having trouble too. there has been illness, job loss, weddings, divorces, moves, and just in general crap this year. boy i sure hope 2011 is better. sheesh.

have you had trouble too?

2 comments

1. Adoption of Jane on May 27, 2010 at 8:17 AM

   I would have the blahs too! Oh and Look Me in the Eye...I love that book!!! Thats so sweet for you to offer your only copy!! I talked to John Robison on Twitter through #tck chat. He is so cool!! @coffeeklatch does morning chats (and some evening) with special needs speakers. They have a website too its http://www.thecoffeeklatch.com/
   
   I agree we definitely know our kids!! Official diagnosis or not you know your Aspie!

    
2. Annah on June 3, 2010 at 11:22 AM

   17 hour days! Holy moly!