everyone wants to find their soul mate. but what do you do when your soul mate is a woman?and you are too. does being your soul mate mean that that's the person you're supposed to be with? that you're supposed to marry them? i'm not trying to head into the 'life partner' section of things. i don't bat for that team. i'm a guy's girl. not a girl's girl. my soul mate just happens to be female. whatdayado?

so the other night we are at my uncle's house. having a halloween party. and my cousin. my bestest cousin, August, says to me..."Did you bring your wife to the party?" me? i laugh. August? she was halfway serious. but not really. my wife? she just busts into hysterics. and grabs my hand and says "why yes. yes she did!"

let me preface by saying i am NOT married. i DO NOT have a wife. i don't have a husband either. i just have kids. and my person. now...about my person...

that person to me is my BFF. i've referred to her on here quite a few times. i have a ton of best friends. a ton of cousins and family. but she is my person. i have other friends that are close on other levels and to other degrees. and by no means are they not a crucial part of my life.

our relationship is unique. we are more like a married couple than her and Juice are. it just happens. when it's us and the kids we bicker at each other in public like we're married. and have a tendency to be too comfortable with each other. we touch too much. and laugh too much. we 'us' and 'our' too much. all the kids call us mom. or 'other mother'. we hate other people in our space. i have a bubble. and you don't belong in it. but with each other...the bubble doesn't exist. at all. we think the same. we don't have to even say anything sometimes. we can just look. and know. we spend hours on the phone. talking? not always. sometimes we just sit there. or we will be on the computers, im'ing each other and on the phone. just to have each others input. even if that input is silence. it's a comfort thing.

i know. we. are. weird.

but hey. it's us.

i'm bringing all this up because right now she's stressed. which means i'm stressed. sometimes it sucks to be so connected to people. really. i'm having sympathy poops. that doesn't happen you say. seriously?? it happens. trust me. so right now we are on pins and needles. see the most perfect house is on the chopping block. it would be a rental/lease. but i think it's a place they could stay in. could eventually buy. and stay. longterm. what does this house mean? it means she's closer to me. yay me!!! (shut it! i can be selfish). but it also means a new start. a smaller ISD for the kids. and the possibility that Juice may not have to go overseas again. so all in all...it's a good thing. and right now we are waiting. well...she is waiting. but i am waiting too. sickening. and her and i...we talk things out. that's how we work. so here i am. talking it out. with you. my 'other' people.

you should feel special. cause i'm sharing.

and i'm not always a sharing kinda person.