my baby turned seven just a little over a week ago. march 23rd to be exact. seven. seriously. it feels like it was just yesterday that i was bringing her home. yet at the same time it feels like she has been here forever. she is a big soul in a little body. curly headed bright eyed. my little ray of sunshine mixed with lightening.


i had a special child. one you have heard of before, Big'K, and i thought i was ready. but this little one. she has caught me in ways i could never have been prepared for. we are going through testing right now. because my Lil'K can be more lightning than sunshine. she can be fiery yet caring. lie to your face then be brutally honest. we have had a lot of doctor appointments lately. psych to be exact. you see, something is wrong. they are not sure what yet. but something. bi-polar, multiple personality, PTSD, on the spectrum, sociopathic...something. something scary. but ya know what? the meds...they are helping. and right now that makes this the best last six months we have had since she was two. so now, hitting seven, i am just hoping for some luck. roll the dice...hit seven. let us see where we roll.



i am here. i am mommy. i will always be here. through the rough and the silly. the laughs and the tears. the diagnosis. everything.



i love you through and through. my little sunshine full of lightening.

2 comments

1. Ms. G on April 6, 2012 at 7:59 AM

   A belated Happy Birthday to your sweet baby! She is a gorgeous girl and I bet everything will turn out fine. Just look at that smile : )

    
2. Loco YaYa on April 6, 2012 at 12:01 PM

   thank you MOTPG. it will be fine. because that is the way it has to be. right? your comments always make me smile. thank you for that.