i just realized that i have not posted since my mini-breakdown. i am happy to report that i have been much happier since then. so getting it out, clearing the cobwebs, has worked for a bit. it is a new year afterall and it is time to make a change. the grief that surrounded me when that twenty year mark hit was almost unbearable. but i sought refuge in my mind. i found a little peace in my heart. and that has been settling.

now on to other things...

apparently 2012 will be the year that my appliances rise up against me. go figure. since christmas/the first of the year i have replaced my washer, dryer, television, the circuit board on my furnace, gotten a wii and am about to replace a hot water heater. i do not own a microwave or i am sure that would go out too. i am also having to call in service on my fridge as my ice machine thinks the good thing to do is make ice castles in my ice tray. really appliances? really. i have also been stalking catching up on some of my favorite blogs on the interwebs. the job is good. the kids are ok. and as of right now my house is nice and toasty. tonight i am sitting alone catching up on my reader and the girls are at the BFF's. it gets quiet here without them. there was a time that i longed for the quiet. but now...i just end up bored. Juice just stopped by and brought me some homemade pretzels that the BFF made. nom nom.

i did not make any resolutions for the new year. just a few goals. my goals from last year tanked. of course. but i can always try again. and this year all i am really hoping for is a better life. a better today. there are things i want to work on. a new fence up around the yard. hopefully no animals. getting rid of the ones i have and not getting anymore. skirting around the house, painting the window awnings, fixing my carport roof, getting my yard in shape, my outside shed torn down and my wood building paid off. working on my family. helping the girls to grow in a positive light. becoming a little more self sustaining and just work on the emotional factor for not only myself and the girls but just in general presenting a better foot forward in the world. i do hope so far your new year is going better. and if nothing else, that you too have found peace.